Deconstruction of Individual Identity

Who is

Luther Blissett?

Find out for yourself...

(the eternal oscillation of human fortune)

After Life Management

Sunshine and Lollipops
(Or The meaning of Life part II*)

Can all spiritual experiences be explained in a scientific context?

Not denying the existence of a god but allowing for an alternative that makes the validity of a higher power irrelevant. Part of a great plan, a great cosmic reality, devoid of petty details that only have relevance in a limited context. There are infinite perceptions of reality but only one that matters, yours.

Hard to imagine, even harder to believe...
Mystical experiences = meaningfulness
Self-exploration = Therapy

Love myself and in doing so love mankind

There is no self, we're all just part of the universe, life is filled with meaning and importance. You just have to see it. Become something more than yourself. Find value in people instead of distancing yourself. Find who you are and why you live.

Explanation of all life or a feeling that shows it didn't really matter either way, due to stimulation of the right temporal lobe? Are shared experiences of seeing a "light" or a vortex proof of an afterlife, or just the final functions of a dying brain, consciousness does not depend on a functioning brain.

Out of darkness into light, ignorance to understanding...

(*mostly sourced from a documentary about studies into the brain activity of people who have near-death expericences)

Coping Stratagem

"Ours perceptions are more important than our reality...

I am fine... I just lost my mind

Critical Meltdown

Troubled Individual Seeks Similar

My first big break (down)
This is where it got a little dark...


a jumbled mess of feelings and thoughts that will have very little meaning to all but a few...so skip this one if you are in the mood for laughs, I just had to put it here so I could calm myself.

some tried to warn me, some couldn't see
I was in a spiral of self destruction
I had ideas above my station
I was not motivated to achieve
I was meant for something else
I was meant to be someone else
I was acting like someone else
I now don't know who I am
I am struggling

waiting around for nothing

something else may never come
others won't do it for you
if you don't act for yourself

I search for meanings never there
but life goes charging on
stop seeking out the answers
if questions are meaningless
the more you dig the less you know
and the pursuit may finish you

one person in particular saw it everyday
I ignored the warnings and now I have to pay

the worst form of torture
I developed in my mind
used only against myself
friendly fire is unkind

ignored misused and abused for so long
my mental notes became volumes of guilt
But my mind remembers it all
this could haunt me for some time

I wish I could forget or at least not regret
so now I get to rebuild in another way

The Straw That broke the Camel's Back...

I wasn't really coping but couldn't tell anyone
now I'm still not coping but don't have to lie
we have to hit bottom before we can be saved

no one to blame but myself
you were right
and I was wrong

Suspension of Disbelief

This world of circulating life and death blinds the enraptured mortals from the immortal realm of the artistic and spiritual.


I can feel them floating around me...

Art Theft Victim

Don't Walk away in silence

Everyday is like Sunday

Building Bridges to Knock them Down

I DON'T WANT POWER...
I JUST WANT TO
CONTROL EVERYTHING!

So you may have come to realise by now that this blog does not know what on earth it is doing or where it's going, but it does it anyway. It doesn't know all the answers, it may not know half the answers*. In fact the answers that it does actually think it knows are (or could be) completely (or at least partially) false.Kind of symbolic of myself and my approach to life.
This could be frustrating for some but may also produce varying levels of excitement for others, from the randomness created. Being prepared to rethink things on a daily basis, challenge our own thoughts, entrenched opinions, what we take for granted and/or think is real. Not because we flip-flop, but because we grow.


The puzzlement of the unknown, the drama that is encapsulated, the eternalness of the unknowable and the laughter that ensues. The choice to seek out new ideas, search for intelligence and quality where it can be found, and the willingness to carry on regardless of what may alter our perceptions. And so forth.... Out of me noggin' am I?



So don't mind if you don't always know what I'm talking about, because it's sometimes subjective, and I do flick between many different topics very quickly, and occasionally without prior warning.

THIS MACHINE KILLS FASCISTS!
*exact percentage unknown at time of print

Imagination Costs Nothing

"It all happened too fast
to concentrate...

(pleasant malice)

we're all the same
we're all different
we're all insecure
we're all ego-driven
we're all normal
we're all weird

(connections, connections...)

everybody in the world knows us somehow
they just don't all know how yet
this is known somehow
Six degrees up in this bee-arch!!!

"Just about got away on me then...

Grandiose Solitude

"Everybody makes mistakes...
just some more frequently than others.



no life today for inner peace

if everything leaves do feelings release?

Extinct Theories

"It's not you
it's me...

Organised Randomness:

just because you don't know what you wanna do...
doesn't mean you shouldn't do it

we are never going to be treated any better...
than we treat ourselves

there is no rhythm in the world...
without movement first

One Million clichés:

losing interest in the games we play on a daily basis
I must have given up years ago
on the verge of a breakdown
loose cars, fast women
paranoid delusions
can't cope with rejection
all the kings horses and all the kings men
disillusioned dreamer
playing with my own heart
confused by myself
I hate me more than you do
the actions I took were clearly my own
I blame myself for thinking alone
lack of judgement and poor taste
that is all I would like to say on the matter

"Hello Darkness
my old friend...

Exercise in Futility

Got some space you would like to devalue? Then these should come in handy, you could print them off and make them into posters or just crappify your desktop or workspace if you want. Actually it's pretty much open for you to do what you like with them.
But ignore them at your own risk!

Next weeks themes include:
Icons, screen savers and humorous farting sounds for when you clear your recycling bin!

Defiance of Logic

"Oh I do have a private life that influences all my thoughts, decisions, opinions, emotions, tastes, feelings, triumphs, disasters, past and present...

I just don't talk about it here much.

They are all in my heart though
and will flow through my words
for as long as I write them you can read them
whenever you like I don't mind
eventually lack of attention may disillusion me
but I can't see that happening, especially on the internet
there is always a sucker to get hooked on what you got

Do you like green?

Periods Of Uncertainty

Obsess much?

Life imitates art imitates life imitates art imitates life imitates art imitates life imitates heart imitates knife imitates brain imitates others imitates spite imitates television imitates hands imitates forever.

Don't try and be different...
Or you won't be the same!

(Free: yourself
while you still can't)

Attack Decay Sustain Release

Disposable Heroes/Income:
(OR a good old political rant of misplaced anger*)

If I had a private army
I'd take it to Zimbabwe
unleash it on Mugabe
murder death kill

he deserves a proper death
long slow and torturous
but that's sinking to his level
Well we're already there

surely he should be dead by now?
What sort of world kills Ghandi
MLK, JFK, Bhutto, Lennon, etc...
but let's human waste like
Pinochet, Pol Pot and Mugabe
live to a ripe old age???

I'm disgusted in us all
especially myself

why do we assassinate good people?
I guess it's cos only evil people kill others
that is why we need good assassins like in the movies some sort of Norris/Eastwood/Stallone/Willis mission? but I forgot all the good guys are already at war
surely the UN can't talk and do nothing forever
unless that's what it was always designed for
a system to legitimate diplomatic inertia
while they sit on their washed hands
doing nothing nothing nothing
economic interests prevail
blood flows through Africa

seems the only people that want power
are the ones prepared to use it
to get themselves to power
and keep themselves powerful

so by definition all leaders are power hungry control freaks only wanting to perpetuate their own interests, feed their egos, scratch their cronies backs and punish their opponents... however benignly they achieve this.
unless they're ignorant puppets like bush


not to mention all the other bad governments, regimes, atrocities, and genocide happening around Africa and the third world, that are obviously not as important as celebrity romance, sports and buying shit we don't need, on credit we can afford, to benefit people that despise our existence... (see comment attached)

*natural anger helps me post

Mainstream Alternatives

"This is not going to be pretty...

(open your mind)

Alternative mainstreams
demanding attention
-+-
request new data
from old confessions
-+-
good for nothing
self -appointed genius
-+-
all in jest
it ain't too serious

"This is why we can't have nice things...

This Ain't No Disco

You can be assure the reasons for this, are random and not deliberate.

This is not an advertising space, as far as no one pays me, so you can be assured of my honest opinion, untainted by the sleaziness of money or commercial imperatives. I only really mention things I found really interesting, thought provoking or just damn good! In saying that much of the time I am promoting some sort of cultural document or artwork. Whether it be a new Album, movie or in this case a comic book/graphic novel:


I just read this recently after finding it on a friends coffee table. Took me a while to get through it the first time, so I then re-read the whole thing again quickly. Which is really how these things should be enjoyed. Burn out, not fade away.

An exploration of American culture thought the eyes of a corporate executive who has just gone through some personal crisis of his own. This takes place right around the time of the most publicised event in modern history. So permanent in the collective memory of the West it has been given it's own three digit code: 9-11.

Is America broken or being fixed?

Trouble that can't be named

Loneliness is emptiness and promises are meaningless.

You and me are different, and we just can't have that.

Beware of those prepared to protect their own values by sacrificing the lives of others.

God is unemployed and lonely.

I am a tree.

Silenced By Death

"It's called the
American Dream,

because you have to be asleep to believe it!"

George Carlin

(12 May 1937 - 22 June 2008)
R I P

Tribute:
(eyes open/eyes closed)

woke up and went walking
in the cold darkened rain
thought about the future
it was coming either way

guessed I wouldn't notice
people missing from my day
you'll still be heard talking
eloquent but plain

generating laugher
humour was your way
looking at the world
honouring it's shame

highlighting stupidity
and unnecessary rage
a strong insightful voice
so seldom seen on stage

Time Piece
"It's a big club and you ain't in it!"

State The Obvious

Slogo hater hymns
for Homo sapiens
(slogos for the bros woes)
Nasty little words
that mean so little
I'm not there, I'm here.
I'm not dated, I'm retro.
I'm not lazy, I'm creative.
I'm not insane, I'm illogical.
I'm not messy, I'm abstract.
I'm not lonely, I'm independent.
I'm not elitist, I'm discerning.
I'm not improving, I'm developing.
I'm not apathetic, I'm uninspired.
I'm not defective, I'm biological.
I'm not ruthless, I'm determined.
I'm not boring, I'm analytical (ha-ha anal)
I'm not pathetic, I'm misunderstood.
I'm not completing, I'm delegating.
I'm not dead, I'm sleeping.
I'm not this, I'm that.
I should work in PR (not)
I'm not x, I'm y.

Pursue the Unattainable

Watch out!

you might get what you're after...

Cool baby strange but not a stranger
I'm an ordinary guy
Burning down the house

Hold tight wait 'til the party's over
Hold tight we're in for nasty weather
There has got to be a way
Burning down the house

(talking heads)

Fetish of the Month Club (Original 12 Inch Mix)

Dominance and Territory

Things that make even less sense when I type them out...

(a.k.a: Snappy answers to questions that were never asked)

Our strongest opinions are based on the things we know least about.

Every body make mistakes, just some more frequently than others.

Develop your relationship with life, the universe and everything (including yourself).

A small gain is never worth a big loss.

Delusions of Grandeur

Why aren't I God yet?

Blissful Ignorance Rewarded Profusely

Playing around with words
like they were toy trucks
in the sandpit...

light of my life
milk of kindness

fuel for the fire
food for thought

nectar for the soul
comfort for the weak

defeat for arch rivals
revolt for the oppressed

love for the forgotten
excitement for the bland

solutions for the damned
positivism for the hopeless

hope for the disillusioned
something we can cling to

Stupidity Breeds Contempt

Intermittent fretworks
Disconnected networks
Interconnected guesswork
Independence = Isolation
Dependence = Slavery
Shut up Mexted!

Parts of Parts of Parts

The Conditional Human

carnivorous thoughts

unbridled remorse

kamikaze solutions

unenviable guilt

hidden alliances

unflinching anger

wasted diplomacy

unexplainable reactions

automatic emotions

unrivalled self-pity

quelled rage

unwanted hatred

buried feelings

unquenchable lust

latent desires

uninspired habits

emotional let-down

uncontrolled passions

lingering resentment

up and down
round and round

Permission Granted Access Denied

Fun n Games!

Spot the difference(s):

See if you know where these lyrics were stolen
sorry I mean appropriated from...
(different sources raided)

Hello Darkness
Hello Sunshine
Hello Not all All
Hello All the Time
Hello Nowhere
Hello Oblivion
Hello Goodbye...


Who shoot biggie smalls? If we don't get 'em they gonna kill us all!
I'm down for running up on those crackers and their city hall!


Daydream, I feel asleep between the flowers...
for a couple of hours, what a beautiful day!

To finish off Lyrics taken from
Gnarls Barkley: The Odd Couple...

I don't know what matters to you at this moment...
but that's all that matters to me.


Anyone that needs what they want,
and doesn’t want what they need
I want nothing to do with

Somebody’s watching. Maybe you want em to see you
But with your regrets and secrets you don’t really want them to be you.

Here Be Spoilers

Please the world
the way you can
pleasure is good
for everyone

It is a distinct possibility
that the world has
always been this fucked up
and never deviated from
its current course one iota.

I guess it's our job as to try
as hard as we can
to make it better
no matter how futile
this may seem...

A small job/effort now
may produce marvellous
results in years to come
but that is not a certainty

Your payback may not come
assumption is a form of laziness
seek out the truth
and new thoughts
but don't think you own them

nobody knows the answers
except for what they have proven
you may know for yourself
but may never be able to explain

The future is unwritten...
except for the part where
we all die!

Extreme Escapism Eclipses Equilibrium Equations Eloquently

Freedom!

...as long as you don't try to use it.
...the best abstract noun known.
...a great excuse to start a war.
...a very debatable concept.
... a great bumper sticker.
...to say you don't love.
...rapidly decreasing.
...worth fighting for?
...always in danger.
...never here?
...forgotten.
...for all?
...fear

Things to Look At...

Photobucket Album

Viewer Discretion Is Advised

Preserved By Death!!

First in an undetermined series of recycled off cuts, not worthy to adorn the crest of this fine online journal of self-indulgent nonsensical mental indiscretions indecisively strewn from start to finish in a haphazard fashion, liable to change at random.

Villages shocked by horrific news!!!!
Past header pic magically migrates to this location below:

Btw... this was taken in Hanoi at the security post for Ho Chi Minh's Mausoleum
No Cameras, short sleeves or smiling allowed, thank you very much.
As it upsets Uncle Ho's beauty sleep, which will last eternity at least...

end of part one

Also just thought I'd add extra for experts:

blah blah blah work work work sleep sleep sleep you you you

This I believe

Learn to question...

We can deny our heritage and our history, but we cannot escape responsibility for the result.

No one can terrorise a whole nation, unless we are all his accomplices.

We must not confuse dissent with disloyalty.

A nation of sheep begets a government of wolves.

We cannot defend freedom abroad by deserting it at home.

Prog Version Slowly Crushed

For the 21st Century

New Abbreviations of the Old Apocalypse:

AM Armed Militia
BT Built Today

CD Collective Denial
DC Don't Collapse
PO Peak Oil
CA Con Artist
DD Dumb Down
NI Natural Ignorance
AI Authority Issues

Good night and good luck...

Time Passes With Less Hesitation

Old Age:

... and then one day I realised I was the old man

warning kids to get off the road

instead of being one of the kids on the road...

Who said freedom was free?

Inconsequential Drift

The Modernist's To Do Listings:
(Short-Medium-Long-eternal-term)

• get lunch
• move car
• make bed
• be positive
• call cab
• right wrongs
• lick stamps
• feed cat
• contact people
• learn Spanish
• lynch mob
• tell lies
• find truth
• train staff
• fire missiles
• force fire
• cover arse
• act guilty
• pursue coitus
• react accordingly
• save nature
• calm chaos
• engage enemy
• save friends
• live deliberately
• upgrade thought
• launch program
• see world
• skip town
• fear devil
• prey god
• collect badges
• buy products
• lose oneself
• gain control
• avoid responsibility
• seek answers
• enable addicts
• generate income
• secure finance
• waste money
• consider options
• try anything
• blame others
• beg forgiveness
• suck blow
• choose life
• be perfect
• initiate revolt
• get out
• live life
• die hard
• change again

World Demands Oppression

progress is a fine thing, the trouble is it went on too long...


...clichés (that we need sometimes)


The grass is always greener...
it all comes out in the wash...
out of sight out of mind...
Cat got your tongue?
do the best you can...
get over it...
you do...
---------------

(lyrics I'm borrowing for non-argumentative purposes...)

...there is no perfection, that's an inane flawed theory..
...this is not scare scaremongering, this is really happening...
...I ain't got no enemies but, if you test me I will retaliate...
...the only love we have is love for ourselves,
we bury our secrets in the garden...
...soul on the mind, mind on the soul...
...miles apart, inches away...
-----------------------------------------

...I am the son and the heir of a shyness that was criminally vulgar...

...due to lack of interest tomorrow has been cancelled...

(Words taken away from each other then put together)


Turbulent Systems
--------------------
Unruly world
equations of motion
concepts of invariance
quid pro quo
game theory
man in decline
in flux
happen stance
bland suburban mulch
the good life?
empty and innocuous
future
pleasant gloom
never be too happy
all work and no play
routine and methodical
ancient and abiding
dominance and territory
margin of error
criticise thyself
continuous change
moving target
satisfaction
work
end
--
-

unseen manipulations
------------------------------
smokin' dak out the back(in')
we could pack a fat sack(in')
motivational lack(in')
lost desires attack(in')
but don't crack(in)' no flack(in')
if you dunno jack(in')

petition repetition repetition repetition repetition repetition repetition repetition repetition repetiti

Stuff I wrote down or read from other sources whilst at my workplace
then emailed back to myself to edit marginally and fill up space.
Okay this is going to be a mixed up load of... enjoy!
Have I written this before?
ground hog day
infinite loop
dé jà vu*



The Synthetic Age

In modern times we have managed to replicate many aspects of the past, except for the quality.

Material Fetishism

If the oppressed masses of the world were to unite or form a class consciousness, present power structures would be meaningless as they are based almost solely on an unequal distribution of wealth, and not as we are sometimes informed based on natural talents and abilities. If you really believe that vast wealth can be accumulated via 'hard work' or 'risk-taking' then shouldn't all inheritance be outlawed as it discourages people from both of those things. It only encourages people to jump vehemently to the defence of so-called 'property rights' and strongly resist any attempts to redistribute wealth...

Interaction of politics and economics...
RIP Zimbabwe, Burma, etc...

notes from the edge...

inside the thought factory...

Production line of the mind...

Mixing up storm, brewing up a cuppa....
Too busy, as always. Time/money paradox
Need more time,
but this must be sacrificed to obtain money.
Which is required to acquire possessions
which can be used to enjoy time.
Which you can't use
'cause you are too busy trying to get more money!
Endless cycle of labour
used to further others aims.
Means to an end.
Our forebears had it worse.
Who am I to complain?
A moaning whinger I assume...
The odds of winning the lottery aren't even worth a chance...
But we'll risk it as much as we can
for a opportunity to break out.
Is boredom better than being in pain
or would that at least provide some sort of stimulation
which is preferable
to the absence of any feeling or excitement.
Go on without me
I'll only drag you down
to my level
of wonder
at what is
and what isn't.

First they came for the Communists, and I didn't speak up, because I wasn't a Communist. Then they came for the Jews, and I didn't speak up, because I wasn't a Jew. Then they came for the Catholics, and I didn't speak up, because I was a Protestant. Then they came for me, and by that time there was no one left to speak up for me.

Attributed to Rev. Martin Niemoller, 1945

My Second Restraining Order

the accumulation of all powers, legislative, executive, and judiciary, in the same hands
whether of one, a few, or many, and whether hereditary, self-appointed, or elective,
may justly be pronounced the very definition of
tyranny

"The proper role of a healthily functioning economy is to destroy jobs and put labor to use elsewhere" -- Joseph Schumpeter

*the illusion of having previously

experienced something actually

being encountered for the first

time.

Mind is a Razor Blade

This blog will not make you live longer.
This blog will not give you the fix you need.
This blog will not freshen your breath.
This blog will not consolidate your finances.
This blog will not challenge you to scrabble.
This blog will not dig your own grave.
This blog will not rotate your tyres.
This blog will not invigorate your sex life.
This blog will not reduce your household expenses.
This blog will not accuse you of sin.
This blog will not irrigate your colon.
This blog will not publicise your acting career.
This blog will not listen to your problems.
This blog will not beat you to the punch.
This blog will not organise your sock drawer.
This blog will not alleviate your guilt.
This blog will not perform miracle surgery.
This blog will not steal your lunch money.
This blog will not bless you for eternity.
This blog will not uncover forgotten talents.
This blog will not wear protective clothing.
This blog will not solve your cryptic crossword.
This blog will not cancel third world debt.
This blog will not call you a liar.
This blog will not say sorry.
This blog will not complete the circuit.
This blog will not adjust the volume.
This blog will not sustain massive internal injuries.
This blog will not always be 100% original.
This blog will not try a hostile takeover.
This blog will not be here forever.
This blog will not save your life.
This blog will not de construct your universe... ohh wait, it will do that...
This blog will be here as long as it has to

Stagnation and Subtraction

The routine of no routine

calling coming leasing
fleecing ready or not
over and out burger
in box message station
zero zero brava alpha
liquid tango roulette
stingray
origami rice
paper lesson tray
movement scenario
enlargement stoppage
quote miss mass
bliss wage gauge
lounge found port
pound nought sound
rout sunk cost
reap roost coitus
loss boss rigor mortis
Charlie kilo flamingo
beetle sequel leakage
orgy scandal cover up
denial rumour postage
lawyer task force removal
pending approval secret
manoeuvre function
void vacuum
ending


Ideas change everything

urbane justice
guilt complexity
country mile
execution style
stand and deliver
we are together
lightning rod
wrecking ball
surface tension
tentacle
action response
lacking results
enjoyment selective
deployment tentative
negative reinforcement
remote access
preventative practise
producing slackness
denied development
artistic embellishment
characteristic
polish and wit
seeing red
breakfast in bed
dragon breath
life causes death
cultural methadone
we are alone

there is no I in rehab

Everything Is Temporary

The struggle for transcendence...

Suffering is normal
Pain is normal

The sooner we can collectively realise these truths
the sooner we may think of ourselves less as victims
and stop attacking each other because we feel threatened
or attack because we fear that we will be attacked
or think that we have already been...

Do I really want to believe the truth?
or just a compromised version of the truth
that allows me to continue to do what I want to do?

Got no regrets... except I wish you we're here with me...

NB:If you haven't done so already...
Watch "Children Of Men" the 2006 movie starring Clive Owen.
It is definitely one of the best films I have ever seen!